` Why create a new blog again?
* cos i got nth better to do. lols. =x the very last time i blogged was on June 29..secret/personal blog. then quited blogging, as well as blog designer in www.blogskins.com .
` Why there is no tagboard? * cos i removed it . and i dont think i will be an active blogger.
` i am a blog designer before, but i have a very plain layout in this blog.
* cos i dont think i need a beautiful blog. (:
` Why public blog and not personal blog? * personal blog is kinda boring though i can type a lot of secrets in it . lols.
` Why do i call myself apple? * cos most of my online buddies addressed me that. -.- used to it ler . o.o
` Why use blogdrive and not Blogger? *
cos Blogdrive is more user friendly than blogger yup.
i do not know wad to put for this section. so decided to put it as FAQs section. just for fun. lols.=x
im physically tired, emotionally injured and its at the limit that im going to explode, anytime.
i just came back from school, doing my very very last kuku BIG project. need to submit by sunday midnight to my tutor via email
super quiet. i dun wish to talk nor smile.
flu virus found me and attacked my nose. cough virus found me and attacked my throat.
making my mood worst......
reached home and greeted my parents. w/o saying a second word, i went to open my piano.
vent my anger on my piano again. =.= ... wedding song sounds like volcano eruption - thats what mom said.
no one likes to overwork. no one likes to do work when he/she is not feeling well. who likes to work so much?
most of the males tend to look at a picture of a problem, saying what they THINK. most of the females tend to look at a smaller picture of a problem, saying what they FEEL. this results males tend to state about the fact of this and this, females tend to care a lot over little things.
*she has no energy to zoom out and look at the bigger picture. she is losing her way to understand you. she needs nothing but your love care and concern. silence has frozen her. </3*
when i was in my secondary school, i love maths and accounts... those number number stuff. even physics.. calculation of concentration in chemistry.... etc.
however in O level maths, im okay with 90% of the topics. among all the topics, i hate mean median mode, probability ... ...
now, my poly statistics maths, i need to learn some part of A levels maths, which is statistics and probability...
crap. need to memorise each and every meaning of mean median mode. each mean median mode got 2 ~ 3 different types of formulas for different types of datas.. =.=
im okay with cumulative freq ogives and so on. but just do not really like to do %$#%#$% calculations.
today's test is probability. ..................................... well, i always skip whenever i see probability question in my sec 4 & 5 exams. i always kanna careless mistakes for probability. ya i know, its easy.... . . but if the phrasing of the question confused me, i always fell into the trap. =(
but looks like i am fated to study these kuku subjects ! D: mean median mode.. probablity........ and i do not have the courage to say that i will do well the test. D'=
i was freaking moody ytd, end up didnt touch my statistics. no mood to study at all... my da jie and papa and 2nd sis have a quarrel ytd too.... =( so, i went to sleep and stop myself from thinking too much.
end up waking up early in the morning to study today. 4am.... i had a serious morning flu. =.=" chiong 30% of the revision before i leave the house. when i reach sch, i managed to chiong another 40% like that. im using short term memory to rmb those formulas. "taking screen shot of the book and it will disappear in 2 days time".
sighs. disappointed. i must do well in this kuku module D: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dun wan my parents to be disappointed... < / 3
i think im falling sick too......... my nose is burning hot + red + itchy ... :'( im feeling down..............
this big big big big project which i've been talking about is FINAAAALLLLYYYYY OOOVVVVVEEEERRR!!!!
whoooooooooooooooooooopppiieee ! lols.
ytd, ting and i planned to take cab to school today. as we will be wearing formal, we do not want to squeeze into the bus and let ppl see how weird we will be dressed.
ting dressed like... those Macdonald uniform. =x i dressed somehow.. casual smart wear larh. 60% look formal.
kuku ting teased me in her blog. =.= .... ii really feel like biting her when i saw that post =/ .
received 1st morning sms from ting. she sms-ed "hey"
tats all. lol.
i was like.. huh? after that she sent another sms "Hey my mom will be fetching us later."
llols. by reading the sms, i cfm + chop know that she piggy her is still on the bed.
i am suppose to be happy today. i have lots of fun today. but things didnt turn out right at the night time.
another bad mooooooood night. D:
i had another quarrel with my 2nd sis just now. our communication frequency really very turn off. sighs.
i was so $#%$^#$#^ busy over endless projects. and of cos, i need entertainment too.
i play computer games around twice a week. lol -.- i just need some entertainment larh..
but needing these entertainment = i am a very free person? thats what she said....
then when she was in her NUS, she played world of warcraft non stop, buy those lastest WoW expansion pack, played till maxed level. then mommy nagged her. end up, she said,"mommmy. i every day like that study, i study until so stress, i need to play a bit to relieve stresssss lerh !"
then now, i use similiar reasons and told her that i've been busy studying and doing projects, i some entertainments too.
and this is what i get, "DONT CRAP LARH. u sure u busy? I SEE U PLAYING GAME EVERYDAY. dont try to lie. dont be lazy. since u have so much time to play, WHY DONT U DO AND FIX THE WIRELESS PROBLEM?!"
i was like.... wtf? i screamed back, "you dont trust me, thats your problem! i have been freaking busy over projects and i play games once or twice a week, and u call that playing games everyday. I HAVE BEEN WAKING UP EARLY to study okay. i do not have the time to fix the wireless!!!"
she: you sure u study? u sure u are busy? whenever i walk pass your room, i saw u playing games!
me: u dun believe thats your problem larh ! i talk whatever shit is nothing to u. diana (my da jie) hv been seeing me studying everyday before she went to work.
............................................... she was screaming at me, and when she turn back, she will talk to my 3rd sis (wanli) nicely.
lol? im used to it . she always give the best to wanli. branded stuff and so on...
*in the past, wanli was named as 'wanqing's slave' in my da jie's and my eyes.* be cos wadeva my 2nd sis said, wanli will follow. okay.. thats the past. now not so ler.
just now, i was reading friends' blog. blog by blog by blog, scanning through their posts. and i read something that reallly pierced through me. freak. that post hurts me millions billions.
can anyone tell me, what is F.R.I.E.N.D.? does it last forever? or it is just a come and go kind of stuff?
i've finally finally finally finally finally COMPLETED my econs project.
super super duper busy recently.
streesss ehhh ~ ):
today went to AMK lib teach my mei tuition. lol.
she asked me to teach her maths and physics.
im okay with physics. cos i still can rmb most part of it.
but as for maths. .. . . . lol .. . . =.= .. . i hate algebra, vectors .. . . . . probability.... lol. . . .. . . .. . . . .. . . .. . .. . . .. i've already forgotten all. i only rmb angle properties, circle properties, bearings, Pythagorous' theorem, locus, measurements, smiliarities, congruency. ... . . blah blah. . . . but.. algebra.. . . vectors. .. . . lol
end up call emergency S.O.S. . =x after awhile he reach ler. mei gave him simi question, he just do. and his speed.. .. . is like a rocket? .. . . lols.
then my mei said, "waaaa... so fast jiu finish le.."
hahaha.
by stating the fact, he is powerful at his left brain. but my right brain is more powerful than him. muahahaha.
*i really really appreciate those people who've reallllllyyyyyyy helped me in the project*
today's Effective Writting lesson a.k.a. English lesson is kinda scary........
tutor was going through about ICA 3 project at the first place. then suddenly, she told the Chairperson to give out the results of ICA 2 (Report writting) to the class.
whole class was completely shocked larh. cos it was just way toooooooo sudden... and she did not mention any ICA 2 thingys for the past few days too.
while waiting impatiently for my turn to get my paper, i gasped that the chairperson didnt have my paper with her.
3 people didnt get back their paper, including me. we were super nervous larh. . . .
and im shivering while the tutor asked us to go to the front of the class as she got something to tell us.
lol. . .............. !!!
the process of listening to the tutor's words were making me feel even mooorrreee nervous =.=" . .. my heart was about to fall out... butterflies in my stomach...... shakings.. shiveringsSs . . =.=
wtf eh. poly life sucks. sucks to the core =.=" ...
%$#%$#%$#%$#^%$#^%$#^%$^$ zzzz .
sibeh quiet for the past few days. super duper quiet towards everyone....my family, friends and people who really love me.
dammn. i become %$#%^$#%^ locked myself like that.
what the hell is going on with me man.
when i was in secondary school, u ask me, "what is maple story? what is Sims 2? what is CaBaL? what is World of warcraft? etc" i can ans all of them.
now u ask me, "what is a game?" my ans will be "i dont know."
...............................
in projects, to me, the process of doing the project aint that important as compared to the end product.
but if in the group, everyone is pushing me to do everything, asking me to present this, present that, and WHILE IM STUCK IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE AND NO ONE IS HELPPING ME, i rather BANG THE WALL AND GIVE UP THIS FKING PROJECT.
i am NOT SUPER WOMAN. I CANNOT HANDLE EVERYTHING AT ONE TIME OKAY. I WILL EXPLODE de.
